two can play that game but still get hurt

So, i find out he is cheating but i would be so stupid to go out and do the same thing because after finding him i thought he was really cheap, so i cant go out to be cheap too...listen to myself i am totally hurt i cant be thinking logically right now, i must act according to my emotions. So i will go out to that restaurant that he usually goes to for supper tonight with Kyle and pay back i can't let him get away with it so proudly.

Oh Gosh she caught me! I was supposed to end this last week but Bella just could not stop calling me. I knew it was wrong i still cared alot about Tricia but i couldn't help it Bella kind of still had a hold of me. I just couldn't break it off with Tricia, i did not want to hurt her but i knew by not telling her i would hurt her more than breaking it off with her. I think i was selfish because i felt i could just stay with them both till i made up my mind but look where it has got me.I'll go hang with the guys for supper then get back and just hit the sack.

So he saw me with Kyle at the restaurant and i know it hurt him because Kyle is one of those guys he detests; but look how far it has got me am not feeling any better. Am still hurt and i still want to punch him in the face but at the sametime i still care about the jerk, why? i don't even know how long he has had it with that tramp! Anyway its going to hurt for quite a while but i have to end this now. We've been together for too long but i have to call it quits because using Kyle to make me feel better and hurt Travice is not helping. i just end up crying at the end of the day because i still have it bad for Travice even after all this.

So now she is with Kyle, i have no right to be jealous or angry when i have been with Bella. I thought Bella was better so i let it go on, so there is no reason to sit here sulking. Tricia will never forgive me and now i realise what a great person she is but i know she won't forgive me and let me back in...thats what hurts so much.

...to be continued...